Most
people aren't very surprised when they find out I have ADD.
It
probably (and hopefully) answers most of their questions as to why I am
the way I am. I'm a tad out-going, think differently than almost
everyone else I know, I'm a little unfiltered, and a bit talkative.
And
do you know what? I thank God everyday that He made me this way.
Because of my having ADD, I get to do what I like to do more than
anything else in the world.
WRITE.
WRITE.
I
started taking the medication for ADD when I was seventeen years old
and a junior in high school. It's true, I needed it pretty badly. I never would have made it into college, let alone graduate from
college, without it. It's rather unfortunate that I didn't learn much in
school (like grammar and punctuation--I apologize now for any mistakes
you might find in my comma placements!), as I was just scraping by
before my junior year, getting my only good grades in the classes or
subjects that had anything to do with Art or Creative Writing. But I
suppose God had a specific reason for that too. I was also seventeen
when I became a Christian, which was the true reason I ended up going to
college and majoring in Christian Education.
I stopped taking the medication about thirteen years later. You'd think the medication prescribed to help me pay attention would help me focus on writing a book, right? But alas, no. It did the very opposite. I hadn't thought much about writing at all during those years because I was so entirely focused on everything else. When I did finally stop taking the medication, I realized that it was what had been blocking so much of what any writer needs most! My ability to think outside of what was going on in front of me was literally shut off for all those years. All along, I'd remembered how I had once LOVED writing from as far back as I could remember. It was after reading books like Gone With The Wind by Margaret Mitchell and Rebecca by Daphne DuMaurier as a teenager I knew I wanted to create a book someday.
I stopped taking the medication about thirteen years later. You'd think the medication prescribed to help me pay attention would help me focus on writing a book, right? But alas, no. It did the very opposite. I hadn't thought much about writing at all during those years because I was so entirely focused on everything else. When I did finally stop taking the medication, I realized that it was what had been blocking so much of what any writer needs most! My ability to think outside of what was going on in front of me was literally shut off for all those years. All along, I'd remembered how I had once LOVED writing from as far back as I could remember. It was after reading books like Gone With The Wind by Margaret Mitchell and Rebecca by Daphne DuMaurier as a teenager I knew I wanted to create a book someday.
For
the last five and a half years I've been off the medication and
spending my time developing my voice and my brand of writing. After
figuring out how to hone my "day-dreaming" into actual stories that I
wanted to write, it didn't take me very long to figure out that this was
what I was made for. I wrote my book and got two agent offers within a
week of sending my proposals. I've completed another now, and I am on my
third. It's a long waiting game to find out what's going to eventually
happen with these books, but I'm happy because I'm writing. And
truthfully, I really have never been good at anything else... because
drawing doesn't count.
It's
true, I'm a bit
scatter-brained. In everyday life, I pretty much need to be told what to
do and where to be. But I
sure can focus on what interests me... and that is brain-storming
plots and writing ultra-complex, involved love stories that teach a
multitude of spiritual life-lessons, not only to my main character
(which I write in first person point of view), but also the reader.
I'm
very much like the kitten (and yes, I love kittens and jump at the
chance to use them whenever possible) in this picture, who's, in essence
saying, "Who cares what everyone else is looking at or paying attention
to? I've already found what I love most... and it's this amazing, green
jingle ball!"
Writing
books is my amazing, green jingle ball. There's nothing in the world I
would rather be doing than paying attention to the plot of my current
Work In Progress.
2 comments:
Beautiful! I've often wondered if in our "modern" world centered around desk jobs and the like, if in our attempt to pigeon-hole people, we risk squelching the created aspects in them. I believe whole-heartedly that each of us are uniquely and wonderfully crafted for a specific, glorious, divine purpose!
You really need to turn this into an article then send it out to various youth magazines. Then maybe tweak it for parenting magazines. :) Because I think it'd be beautiful if we could each see ourselves and our children through God's eyes.
I remember when you were diagnosed in high school. I am SO very glad you can use this to your advantage. I have been diagnosed with bi-polar disorder... And really NEED to take my meds or everything just goes to... Well you know. But the adjustments in my life have had to accomidate my insomnia (either the meds, or the disorder itself, or possibly just something else entirely) so I work in the evening, and try to earn money from home as much as possible.
June 20, 2012 11:34 AM
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